I'm gone

You were there, outside the rain.
Insisting your conviction..
I know there is nothing right or wrong,
but you might not know, how worried I am
perhaps there were too many temptations,
or just you feel bored for your current situation~ and now
you've changed~ changed to someone I might not know anymore...
a lot of people said you are still you, but for me..... you are not the one anymore~

Life isn't easy. I know
you try your best to stay cool~ and I understand,
but I used to be here for you just that you din't notice my existing ... or you are just not interested...

so be it!!! I'm gone ... please don't blame me for not be by your side anymore~ I used to be torn... but now ... I just feel tire ~

Following the rhythm of Heart .....

Someone told me, I just need to follow my heart to get things done .. and someone told me our heart will never lie.... so that I decided to ask my little heart that what should I go for next? To finish my study is an essential with no doubt!!! However, what's next? To get a good job that can make me posh? or to get a girl friend that can share my happiness with... I have really no idea .. what make up my life!! I am a lost sheep.... hehehehe

anyway... i think the best thing for me to do now is gaze at my heart ...and let me heart decided what's next for me..... like the wild wild west!!!

Human's Fact - Lesson 1:~SaCriFicE~ to give is to gain.

In this Crazy gReedy's world, is not a wrong to take more than you should, is not a wrong to earn what you shouldn't have earned... but the law of naturals remains the same, and it will never be change... you can only take how much you give... for everything , every object and every person.. the Ying and Yang concept is always applied ..which means if there is a good side, it must also consist of bad side..use myself as an example, Most of my friends might think that now I achieved everything that I wish such as my postgraduate study, scholarship ,tutoring jobs....and so on..... which is the positive side .. but in fact that I am not born to be clever and such lucky!!! I used to fail my Secondary school examination (UEC), and I am also one of the not-so-good students previously ..... nevertheless, who know that how much sacrifice I paid off for my current achievement , I have traded my time, friendship, relationship ( I think this is the most boresome one ..hehehe.. Actually I quite dislike being single for so long) , even my healthy + money ..... the worst thing is my precious time with my family... but there is nothing I can do~ as no one can break the natural'a law..

So to my dearest friend..., please don't be greedy....there are only 2 ways to get an apple .. either your plant it, or buy it .... don't think that you can get it for free...because every good thing will come with bad things... you'll know if you experience it.....by the way... if you are facing any kind of trouble .. please don't feel sad and don't giving it up.. as the good thing will come very soon... all you need is ur patient .... cheer up my friend...

MoVe ForWarD

The day has come, and I will need to prepare for it..as what they said, if too many good things happen in a period, something bad will follow up to be happen. The insecure feeling inside me is waving .... what should I do next? What else I need to face? What else I am going to lose..... I am in doubt ..... nervous.... hollowness... and helpless..... sigh..

Nevertheless, I can't do anything to prepare for it... the only thing that I can do is keep moving forward.. no matter how horror , how tough, how bad it is.... I still need to keep forward ...

As one of the chinese emperors said before..... the return of being unique are loneliness and helpless... as the chosen one, I must defeat the fear and failure by the name of Dragon's son.

Too bad... I just ain't the emperor ..hahahha..... but who cares.... let it be..^^ i am ready to accept any Good and Bad... come on!!!!!!!!!

What if ??

what if I LOST my leg? Will I still standing ?
what if I LOSt my hand? Will I still writing?
what if I LOst my mind? Will I still thinking?
what if I Lost my eye? Will I still seeing?
what if I lost my heart? Will I still forgiving?

Sometimes, difficulties make me lost my mind, and the reality of a human heart makes me wanted to lose my eyes .... and sometimes, I wish that I could lose my heart .... so that i can be as cruel as Dr.evil ...LoL

a CriMe to Me

not every lies hurted,
not every badness killed,

but when you aren't smile to me,
it is a crime to me. So be happy and stay bliss^^

Charles Studio Production : Charles Cant SING

As Charles cant really sing.... so now 5's Charles together to sing this song.... but seems like the quantity wasn't overcome quality... hahaha...

Dream of Hope

I had a dream last night, and its look so true to me...

**in the Dream**....................................................
I gazed at the window, and watching the scene passed by continually.. and the railway seems to be endless. A guy with a white suit with a mask, came to me and said..

'hey, nothing gonna stop the change. You better make out your big mind before its too late, and don't ever try to F*** with the world while the earth is still turning....'
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Damn!! I shouldn't keep changing what I got now, instead I should keep my feet forward to the next peak. The world was already keeping changing as its natural, the creation is the thing that I wanted to do.

Is time to let everything go and return to the life's big plan that I had set. Get over loneliness and farewell to sadness, I will stand up high one day just like the eagle flying high. The devil of failure please beware of it, I'm born to vanquish you as I am live for success......

a poem from a man called 'Steven'

The moon shines upon the loneliness road to the posthouse,
while the stars comforting the lonely wanderer's heart.

Day by day, night by night,
thousand mugs of rum and glory makes a wanderer called hero,
but a tear of farewell and goodbye melts the man's strongest heart.

Today's farewell will not be forever,
the day to meet again will come when it had to be ,
when the blue moon rise again,
and the curse release,
The wanderer will awaken and turn into the princess's knight.

By the name of Zeus I swore,
to stand for the love and glory,
By the name of Eros I swore,
to protect the young princess till the last blood drop.

a poem from a man called 'Steven'

Life~

Life is just a game that can't be predicted, like a coin that had thrown into the wishing pond, and you will never know when will you get back the same coins that you had thrown.

For me, My life is just like a rubik's cube, seems complicated but is actually quite simple. However, I'm just not the best man for the task.

Ish.... My life is complicated...